Mindful Masturbation for Men - More about Mindful Masturbation

from BRUCE

(Archive: December, 2008-February, 2009)

Simply by reading this sentence

you have begun

your return to living in Paradise full-time!

(Phallic Brothers, to connect with a wonderful worldwide Brotherhood of Men in dialogue about masturbating mindfully, please click here: MM4M2 Yahoo group!)

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COMING SOON!

Return to Penile Paradise

(How I began catching on . . .) Part 1 of 2

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Why not LIVE in Penile Paradise!?

(Part 3 of 3)

2.23.09

Dear Brothers in p3 (pure penile pleasure):

Through my teens the revelations of the profound erotic sensations generated by mature male genitalia continued to stun, amaze, enthrall & entrance me. However this ongoing revelation of how powerful the erotic energy flowing through an adult body can be, was tempered & compromised by my growing inhibitions about my body & being seen naked.

In early adolescence I began comparing myself to more mature, muscular boys who already had plentiful pubic hair, bigger genitalia, & burlier physiques. I felt I was too skinny, not handsome enough, & felt my penis might be too small to impress anyone. ALL pathetic, untrue inedequacies! Only I did allow this poor self-image to terrify me, fearing rejection, so I became dreadfully shy sexually. I dreaded being seen without my shirt!

However I continued, in my own privacy to totally enjoy masturbating, which I had given myself full permission to enjoy without any guilt or shame over the activity. Each evening upon going to bed, I would spend time masturbating to ejaculation; every morning before getting our of bed, awaking always with an erection, I repeated the blissful process. During the night, I would often awaken & enjoy yet another session. During the day I would lock myself in the bathroom & masturbate; during showers & tub baths, always!

When in public places, in public restrooms I discovered the excitement of latching myself into a stall & masturbating there.To my further fascination, I discovered peepholes & glory-holes through which I sometimes observed other guys masturbating or sharing oral sex, which stimulated me to even higher heights--though my shyness prevented me participating with those fellows. (Well, until an experience at age 16, only that's another story!)

Finally during my 20s & 30s while living in the high Rocky Mountains of Colorado, I often spent day-after-day hiking in Rocky Mountain National Park. I found hundreds of spectacular places, most often by a rushing stream or waterfall where the warm sun fell through evergreens & aspens . . . places where I felt sufficient solitude to strip naked & masturbate for prolonged periods . . . having figured out the basic "Stop & Go" method of edging, though no further refinements . . . I'd lie back on a rock int he sunshine, or dance around, feeling deliciously pagan & wild . . .

In this period I also gave myself permission to collect visual images of naked males, masturbating &/or engaging in other erotic activities. In those years before the Internet, these were glossy color porn mags. I began filling scrapbook albums with those images I found the most beautiful & stimulating . . . & as a special treat in my little apartment, I would open the albums & spend hours masturbating while flipping the pages back & forth . . .

Yet I knew somehow that I was missing something of what erotic energy could be. I studied various books on Tantra & Taoist sexuality, yet found nothing I could easily practice--not until 1995, that is! Quite often I recalled the potency of my earliest erotic feelings, when as a young boy I could not yet ejaculate, yet I entered into heightened states of orgasmic intensity while stroking cock2cock with my little boyfriend.

Something in me longed to return to that innocent, pure-hearted, ever-new Penile Paradise . . . & it's now where I LIVE!

Still, the intensity of childhood erotic awareness remains an important insight into my Kundalini quality of Riding the Naga in my daily existence. Through my 30s & 40s my erotic awareness continued as intense as during my teen years or more so . . . so in my mid 50s I AM aware of just now beginning to hit my full-stride . . .

Now I know that the full embrace of Mindful Masturbation allows any man to transform his erotic energy, open his heart & return to his natural state as a human animal living in Paradise.

In another blog soon, I will begin describing my breakthrough of 1995 . . .

Peace & Namaste,

(((HUGS)))

Bruce

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Why not LIVE in Penile Paradise!?

(Part 2 of 3)

2.17.09

Dear Brothers in p3 (pure penile pleasure):

Well, it's taken me longer than I expected to continue this 3-parter (Part 1 is on 1.27.09 below). That's mainly just because when you know as a man that Paradise is between your legs . . . every day overflows with ecstatic enjoyment!

For example, right now simply considering the many years I've enjoyed masturbating arouses me & as I tap the keyboard I pause periodically . . . gripping, grasping firmly & tugging on the big thick erection jutting from my soft cotton house-pants along with my balls. It's warm enough my shirt is off, I'm flicking my nips periodically, pinching & tugging them too . . . man OH MAN!!! How come this keeps getting better & better over the years/something I could never tire of, in fact treasure increasingly all the time . . . ???

I recall some of my earliest erotic memories: As a boy of maybe 3 or 4 I'd lie face-down on the bed & feel the incredibly sweet ache of my erection throbbing between my legs, radiating waves over ecstasy all through the starfish of my limbs & head--a kind of non-specific yet extremly intense erotic bliss that gradually filled my little boy body with luminous joy . . . ecstatic energy both ondirectional & nonlocal . . .

Though everyone who knew me then tells me I was an extremely bright, curious, happy young lad, somehow I never quite figured out the actual manual massage & stroking of my penis to generate such pleasure until I must have been at least 9 or 10 or! Still, as I did enjoy experiences with a cute boy my own age, when he took the initiative to rub our young penises together, again generating pre-orgasmic yet indescribably delicious sensations for prolonged intervals. I sometime played "doctor" & or sought exploratory adventures of mutual nudity, which filled me with such excitement that I trembled almost intolerably.

Yet when perhaps 9 or 10, in the shower I suddenly stumbled upon lubricated male masturbation . . . I'm lying in just my underwear on a bed amid metallic mosquitoe-screens on all sides, beneath a ceiling-fan churning away swiftly & not very cool . . . aroused at the mere mental image of human embodiment, I pushd down the underwear, slip it off, & amid the jungle-like night-cries of our compound in the sweltering humid Southeast Asian night . . . stunned & in total awe at how powerful, profound, transformationally-intense my erotic sensations with maturing male genitalia have become!!! Whewwww . . . + a few years later, in a bathtub in a house on a hilltop in California, I begin ejaculating on a regular basis for the first time at age 14 during the Summer of Love.

Another time: Age 12 or 13, a friend about my age was spending the night. Under the covers on my bed he dared me to take my underwear down. My penis grows totally erect & absolutely delicious. I do so, yet it proceeds not much farther along that path at that time. Arousal infinitely stronger than words can convey grips & keeps me entranced, entrained, utterly seduced.

My own inadequate feeling with my body, along with some internalized homophobia, prevent a happy ending to the evening. Darn!

(CONT. in Part 3)

Peace & Namaste,

(((HUGS)))

Bruce

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Mindfully Entering the Labyrinth of the Anus

(Part 2 of 2)

2.9.09

My Brothers in Penile Passion:

(From Bruce's Journal for 2.3.09) . . . That left leg is lifted high up braced on that side of the tub, my left hand under my thigh, the middle finger of the hand pressing deeper into the Underworld of my rectal Labyrinth . . . having relaxed resistance from both sphincter, the smaller oouter & bigger inner via prolonged Phallic Worship at the front of my body . . .

The finger is buried as deep as it can go. Now the coming together & merging of intensely mindful penil stimulation with the anal explorations segues to new levels . . . the mindful encounter of my middle digit against the firm swelling of the silken rectal wall behind which lurks the aroused Minotaur of my swollen prostate!!! My right hand pauses in the triggering of my frenulum & the tweaking of the coronal ridge & crown of my distended glans penis, which keeps the ecstatic signal connected with my head & crown. After as fewe deep slow breath, I resume stimulating my penis with great delicacy, as cellular memory effervesces through the stardust matter of my exquisitely-aroused body . . .

Seems as the mental awareness of this intensity connects with the root awareness at my anus, my heart expands in my chest--a green glow generous & protective as the ancestral forest where our ancient ancestor scampered shrewlike through the emerald canopy. Perhaps those early primates or proto-primates that already had binocular vision & something that was becoming an opposable thumb, lived largely safe in the higher levels, though the giant dire-wolves or mega-hyenas prowled the lower levels, those giant predators now becoming our deepest unconscious fears in cellular memory.

The most effective antidote to all fear is Love. Yes, capital L Love. By this I do not mean romance or even necessarily emotional affection, however profound. Cosmic, Unconditional Love as such is more on the order of some essential connection or "organizational glue" that holds the structures of the Universe together.

The path of awareness toward this kind of Cosmic Love begin with loving yourself on every level including the physical, simply doing better & better at it as you go along. Never beating yourself up for any "failure" or "inadequacy. No criticism, no blame. Total self-acceptance. Mindful Masturbation is an excellent practice when it's done as genuine, heart-opening self-love.

I embrace the Minotaur of my totally sexual animal nature as the pulsating waves of ferocious contractions begins to clamp & release the middle digit of my left hand, my prostate pumps humungous tidal waves, tsunamis of overhwhelming, dissolving, shattering ecstasy; gobbets of semen shoot over my head, making several loud splatting sound son the wall, something not so common these days . . . I'm gone in radiant fragments of dissolution . . .

The Minotaur & I are One & the same being!!!

Peace & Namaste,

XOXOXOXO

Bruce

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Mindfully Entering the Labyrinth of the Anus

(Part 1 of 2)

2.3.09

My Brothers in Penile Passion:

I seek not to get too repetitive here with my descriptions of blissful masturbation sessions--this always FEELS many XXX more ecstatic than it reads or even looks to watch, if you're doing it! Hopefully you're masturbating, at least casually while you read this, as I'm always masturbating, often rather intensely while writing it. Many guys tell me they can feel the erotic energy I put into this & they get aroused while reading the blog.

Early this AM before sunrise I fill the tub with extra-hot water, 2 flavors of satin body-wash & bubble bath--Mango & Alove Vera. Lighting the beeswax pillar candle on the bathroom shelf, with the space heating warming things, I lower my naked body into the heavenly fragramce of billowy foam. I'm quite aroused already, my penis thick & engorged, swinging heavily from between my legs; I've been enjoying some video clips of several excellent male masturbators, a treasure still quite rare so far, even on the New Earth where we now live!

I'm not only playing Find the Sea-Serpent, but without planning it I launch upon the Hero's Journey into the Underworld of the Anus via Minotaur Masturbation. (SEE blogs for 12.11, 12 & 17 of 09 below.) For some time I'm caressing what seems the gigantic pillar of my erection, not neglecting my balls, inner thighs, nipples, chest, abs, belly, perineum . . . breathing & keepign relaxed all the while as my pleasure soars & merge into ecstatic levitation on top of gravity . . . floating, ascending, hovering effortlessly!!!

I surrender to inspiration by reaching under my thigh with one hand to begin external stroking of my rosebud from behind with a single finger while my other hand continues minsdfully masturbating my penis. Somehow my fully-present awareness becomes totally absorbed in maintaining full erection & a high level of stimulation, while seamless, effortlessly adding the intense tandem element of anal stimulation . . .

Continuing to stroke across my anus, circling on the puckering bud of it, dipping a fingertip slowly in-&-out as the pouty little ring of tissue clutches at my fingertip . . . in incredibly slow-mo by the most gradual of increments my middle finger begins sinking inward . . . the Hero entering the Underworld Labyrinth where dwells his P.A.N (Phallic Animal Nature, SEE blog for 1.14.09 below) also known as the Minotaur within . . .

My middle finger shoulders past the outer sphincter, as I raise the leg on that side even higher against the wall, thighs angling wider still, my other hand delicately fiddling at the underside of my glas where copious precum flows, savoring the elegant cleft where the frenulum attaches . . . Anal X Penile = Universal? Oh no, another erotic equation . . .

I'm preparing to start videotaping this "more advanced" mindful practice for future DVDs, so this is good practice, my conscious mind intrudes, then again it dissolves as . . . as my finger proceeds, a muscular Hero exploring deeper . . .

(CONT. in Part 2)

Peace & Namaste,

XOXOXOXO

Bruce

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1.29.09

AXIS MUNDI*

AXIS MUNDI

PILLAR OF FIRE

NOTHING PLUNGES DEEPER

NOTHING CLIMBS HIGHER

AXIS MUNDI

YOUR LIGHT IS MY BREATH

BEYOND ALL EXISTENCE

BEYOND BIRTH & DEATH

AXIS MUNDI

WHERE ALL THINGS ARE FOUND

AXIS MUNDI

ALL THINGS TURN AROUND

AXIS MUNDI

BODY AT YOUR CORE

FOEVER AFTER/FOREVER BEFORE

AXIS MUNDI

EXISTS OUT OF TIME

STREAMLESS STREAM

PATHLESS PATH

CLIMBLESS

CLIMB

AXIS MUNDI

THE CENTER OF CREATION

AROUND YOUR STILL CENTER

TURNS ALL SENSATION

AXIS MUNDI

PHALLIC IMAGE OF YOUR FORM

FROM YOU I AM BORN

TO YOU I RETURN

AXIS MUNDI

NEVER ENTER/NEVER LEAVE

AXIS MUNDI

WEAVE

THE WEBLESS WEAVE

AXIS MUNDI

THE SILENCE IN THE SOUND

AXIS MUNDI

ALL THINGS TURN AROUND

AXIS MUNDI

MAKING NECTAR OF DEVOTION

AXIS MUNDI

STILLNESS IN THE MOTION

AXIS MUNDI

NOTHING LOST/NOTHING SAVED

WAVES IN EVERY OCEAN

OCEANIC EVERY WAVE

AXIS MUNDI

BEYOND LOVE & FEAR

AXIS MUNDI

CONNECTS FAR & NEAR

CONSTANT CREATION--

THE ONLY FORCE

AXIS MUNDI

CONNECTING WITH SOURCE

AXIS MUNDI

THE LIVING WORLD TREE

AXIS MUNDI

MERGES ALL IN UNITY

(aria da capo . . .)

*This Phallic Brotherhood chant will be used in the Male Mystery School events. AXIS MUNDI was also set to music by my friend the immensely talented harpist & singer known in the Radical Faerie world as Mimosa. I have a recording of it & hope to, by arrangement with himm, also offer a download of the recording on Joseph Kramer New School of Erotic Touch site where I am on the faculty.

Peace & Namaste,

(((HUGS)))

Bruce

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Why not LIVE in Penile Paradise!?

(Part 1 of 3)

1.27.09

Dear Brothers in p3 (pure penile pleasure):

Why not??? You've got everything it takes . . .

Personally I live mostly in a state not only of immense gratitude for my life, but of wonder & amazement at the mere fact of my existence, here in a healthy human body composed of stardust in this Universe: Now! As I've said, I may be a fairly brilliant & well-educated fellow, however I'm not actually as complex as some folks might think. Indeed I'm basically more of a big, throbbing, walking, dancing human erection in my everyday life.

Well, this does not mean my penis is literally erect 24/7, though indeed the more "intelligent" & "well-trained" my penis becomes with daily practice, the more I enjoy masturbating mindfully; it's definitely the Path of my Soul, my primary passion, my life purpose to foster, encourage & share this kind of magnificent, glorious, beautiful practice.

Though I may not be erect & masturbating 24/7, I AM erect & masturbating while writing this, as always with this blog . . . something many guys tell me they can feel as they read this . . . the intense, life-enhancing erotic energy I put into it & those guys that get it tend to masturbate while reading "from BRUCE" as well. I'm honored, if you do so!!!

One hand cups & caresses & treasures my balls--the delicate textures & warmth of the skin, the solid, slippery & sensitive ovoids of my testicles themselves, the soft/wiry texture of hairs on the crinkly soft skin--& the other hand grips the upper length of my swollen upright shaft with intensely-aware fingertips, delicately squeezing, tugging the skin upward around the coronal ridge that connects shaft with glans . . . switching hands between balls & penis, then the lower hand delves lower along the spongy ridge of my perineum, that I clench & relax sensing delicious waves of Kundalini energy upward through my torso, opening my heart . . . the upper hand now focussing on the tender fold of my frenulum at the underside of the puffy pink mushroom head, triggers gradually segue from pleasure into ecstasy as the Gate of Visions, my brow center opens . . .

I've also discerned that the greatest mindful masturbators I know of tend, like me, to be essentially pure-hearted, innocent beings. By this I do not mean naive or inexperienced--by NO means! However, though I feel we're ALL walking wounded in various ways & many human males have shielded, hidden hearts . . . we also ALL have an Inner Boy, a pure-hearted & innocent being that feels totally at home in the Penile Paradise of LIVING in mindful male arousal. You, like me, have a core being that never left the Garden, your authentic, untainted animal nature as part of Nature itself.

Gosh! What an astounding gift!! Perhaps you feel the same way . . . & if not, the processes I'm sharing with the Male Mystery School, of MEA (Male Erotic Alchemy) & PW4MM (Phalic Worship for Modern Men) & the MMC (Mindful Masturbation Circle) all have the potential of restoring this Inner Boy to full awareness . . . so that you can BE him again!!!

Male Mystery School

is about Phallic Brotherhood . . .

. . . among Men of Planet Earth--actual, experiential, caring Phallic Brotherhood.

Have you ever imagined having the opportunity to spend qualitity time with other sympathetic men, getting acquainted, getting naked together, getting comfortable with sharing arousal & self-pleasuring? Have you ever imagined the kind of Phallic Brotherhood in which you could share prolonged sessions of masturbating together, perhaps masturbating mutually & masturbating in groups, for the learning experience, for the sheer pleasure & for the male bonding?

If so, Male Mystery School may be for YOU!

The several billion human males of our species share a natural, healthy desire for plenty of what I call p3, or pure penile pleasure. This is a powerful urge that can be harnessed & tapped for the benefit of all life on the planet. It's amazing how easily this urge can be answered! Men long for higher quality erotic ecstasy, which actually begins as each man starts loving himself better. With a willingness to change some old patterns of masturbatory behavior, you discover new realms of self-pleasuring which can then be shared with fellow men.

This organization provides something human males hunger for all over the world: a meaningful connection between male erotic energy & the sacred dimension of existence.

Since ancient times, humans have revered the Divine Phallus as a source of abundance, masculine creative energy, & ecstatic pleasure. The erect penis is perhaps the oldest sacred image. Male Mystery School also offers men who are interested & willing to participate, the opportunity to actually experience arousal & masturbatory ecstasy as a path to self-realization & greater wholeness. When you open yourself to the actual experience of Phallic Brotherhood, this becomes more than an enticing possibility. In reality it transforms you, your quality of life, & can benefit all of humanity & Nature.

Male Mystery School is dedicated to organizing gatherings of men, of all sexualities, so long as you are open to masturbating in the presence of a group of sympathetic fellow men, for the purpose of this kind of mutual empowerment. The events will include a variety of self-care practices directly related to health, well-being & erotic stamina. These include gentle, easy sessions such as group breathing, Yoga, exercise, meditation, + a minimum of talk, along with regular sessions of group masturbatory practice. You will not be subjected to long lectures!

Participants may be officially initiated & certified to start your own local groups to practice together.

The 3-Circle Phallic Ritual provides the primary context for the practice of self-pleasuring, mutual witnessing, & masturbatory contact. The concentric circles are described in order, from outermost, facing inward, to innermost. This context allows each man to participate in 3 levels of comfort: 3.) Witnessing while masturbating seated; 2.) Being witnessed while standing & masturbating; 1.) Active masturbatory display, frottage & mutual masturbation.

These are known as the 3 Circles of Phallic Paradise. Our intent is to reconcile human nature with Nature itself, to reconnect our male human bodies with Source through p3. Naturally this has the affect of opening your heart to loving yourself & others better & better.

If this sounds good to you, my Phallic Brother, get in touch & let's help to change the world for the better!

Peace & p3,

(((HUGS)))

Bruce P. Grether

http://malemysteryschool.org/

MEN SERIOUSLY INTERESTED: Email directly with Subject Line "MMS" to mm4m@austin.rr.com to be notified of Male Mystery School Events starting in 2009. Please introduce yourself briefly & describe the nature of your interest. Thanks! - B.P.G.

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MEA (Male Erotic Alchemy) & Taoist Tradition:

"To ejaculate, or not to ejaculate?"

1.7.09

My Phallic Brothers:

The "watershed" event that set me on the path of developing what I now call Mindful Masturbation for Men was in the year 1995 when I obtained Joseph Kramer's beautiful, powerful & profound video FIRE ON THE MOUNTAIN. This video remains a key teaching, a major breakthrough for numerous men who are eager to discover "what more" may be possible for them erotically. It's a brilliant teaching as it provides simple, clear, direct step-by-step instruction in "how to."

Until I began working with FIRE ON THE MOUNTAIN I has never been able to actually practice the Taoist practice of cultivating eroptic energy through semen retention. Now, over 13 years later, this has become an essential element of my inventory of erotic skills & tactics that I employ on a daily basis. Now I've developed a growing body of my own teachings on solosexual potentials that I'm sharing with men around the world.

This morning, early, I ran a hot bubble bath & played Find the Sea Serpent--the engorged, puffy pink mushroom head of my erection poking, swaying, dancing, dipping, breaching, reaching, flailing & diving on its long, thick, veinous neck amid pristine fragrant white billows . . . after 25 or 30 minutes I begin my inward exploration of the labyrinth, a single finger gently circling on my anus, door-belling . . . the fingertip gently entering by increments until I'm engaging in full-blown Minotaur Masturbation, one finger triggering my aroused prostate, the other backhand squeezing, stroking, tweaking my erection . . .

It's not a question amid this intensity of Pleasure X Bliss = Joy, to ejaculate or not . . . instead my body tells me I'm surfing the limitless possibilities of bliss, the radical releases of hormones & neurotransmitters in the brain & inner universe of the body. This is simply too good to release the energy from my body, not to keep in in my cells. Strictly traditional Taoism indicates that every ejaculation weakens a human male. I'm not totally convinced, as I know some superb masturbators who ejaculate daily.

Ecstasy can change you in ways pleasure does not, for pleasure tends to leave you the same with its passing. Ecstasy sinks into the marrow of your bones, becomes part of you & radiates from you heart as self-love looking outward lovingly at the Universe, the stars & the Great Mystery. What matters is the quality of self-pleasuring, not necessarily the quantity. If you generate enough to open your heart, to allow your pleasure to dissolve into ecstasy that sinks into your marrow to become lasting joy . . . you're doing the Great Work of Male Erotic Alchemy!

My hidden finger probes deeper still, ripples like a muscular Hero reaching the center of the labyrinth & confronting the Beloved Monster called the mInotaur, my masculine animal nature as I'm pressing against my prostate, the indescribably fusion of sensations as I'm also stimulating my penis shifts me beyond all mental categories . . . Mindful = Mindless as I know I'll never be the same . . . I'm evolving . . .

Peace & Namaste,

XOXOXOXO

Bruce

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The Masturbatoriums!!!

1.4.09

My Beloved Bros. in Penile Passion:

Just now I was chatting with a beautiful man in New Zealand with whom I sometimes masturbate on the webcam. "What's UP?" I asked. He said it was rather late there, past midnight & he was sleepy, not erect & about to go to bed. "That's OK," I said, "actually I don't masturbate 24/7." I could almost see his handsome smile, though we did not have the cams on. "I would masturbate 24/7 if I could," he replied. He said he felt that every town should have a place where men can go to masturbate, just as there now seems to be a McD's & shopping malls everywhere. "A Masturbatorium!" I said, inspired!

Indeed! This is among my visions for the 21st Century--that human males are encouraged to embrace solosexuality & the sharing of solosexuality in Phallic Brotherhood as a healthy, wholesome, honorable & life-enhancing JOY! Not only those men who identify as "gay," but males of all sexualities & preferences who are open to the sharing of masturbatory pleasure & ecstasy with their fellow men. My lifelong study of human sexuality suggest that almost all men not only masturbate, but the vast majority experience various degrees of same-sex attraction.

MY VISION: The Masturbatorium is a "safe" space for this kind of experience & practice for several reasons: 1.) By agreement, adult males gather to share friendly masturbation, which is the most universal form of sexual experience among men; 2.) All interaction is consensual & respectful in terms of witnessing & being witnessed, mutual masturbation, or frottage--without oral or anal contact; 3.) The purpose of the Masturbatorium is to encourage & inspire men to develop, refine & share artful self-pleasuring skills.

Though other forms of male-male sexual activity can be wonderful & also may be practiced mindfully, the purpose here is to be inclusive of the virtually universal human male urge to touch your stiff, palpitating penis, stroke it, & experience Heaven on Earth, or Paradise.

You may say I'm a dreamer . . . but I AM far from the only one!!! There are millions of us who will be streaming into the Masturbatoriums!!! Build them & we will come . . .

Peace & Namaste,

XOXOXOXO

Bruce

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MEA (Male Erotic Alchemy) & Tantric Tradition:

BECOMING a Phallic God!

1.3.09

My Phallic Brothers:

I'm always grateful for interactions that challenge my thinking/feeling aspects as these inspire growth . . . almost as grateful as I am to be embodied as a human male who is aware of being a Phallic God. By a "god" in this case I mean a human who embraces a powerful potential that is perhaps inherent in all humans, yet remains suppressed in many. My feeling is that any man who opens his mind & heart to explore his erotic animal nature as a natural male animal becomes as Phallic God.

This may require some courage beyond the expectations & conditioning of mainstream culture, including so-called "gay culture," as the Phallic God I refer to is something far more primal & primordial than any cultural construct. It's not about any ego-identity as gay, bisexual or straight. It's about being a fully embodied human male.

I've been exploring such frontiers with a Phallic Brother on the webcam while we're sharing sessions of masturbating, watching one another, sometimes chatting . . . I observe his handsome face, lanky body, his huge aroused penis & I observe my own penis, body & face, the "windows" placed side-by-side above the chat window. Most powerful are those intervals of nonverbal "monkey-see-monkey-do" when my Brother & I are both stroking our erections, pinching our nipples, pulling our balls & I can SEE in the flicker, the glazing of his eyes, his mouth gaping, that he's on the gooning edge of that male animal meltdown when mind & body fuse, pleasure verging on ecstasy . . .

For the teaching of MEA that I'll be sharing through the Male Mystery School I'm creating the practice I call Phallic Worship for Modern Men. This involves not so much worship OF the Phallus, as WITH the Phallus--honoring, revering, & connecting with Source. I've discerned that the traditional Tantric Sex rituals designed to provide the participants a direct experience of the Divine by becoming the god & goddess, are often misinterpreted.

Mythically Lord Shiva, Lord of the Dance, Lord of Yogis, is the husband of Paravati. In the Tantric rites, the participants unite Shiva & Shakti, this Shakti often said to be the feminine "yoni" counterpart to Shiva's masculine 'lingam," or phallic energy. Originally Shakti was not identical with Paravati as some maintain, but referred to an energy. In reality, as such, Shakti & Shiva are no more biological genders than are Yin & Yang in Taoist tradition. As such, these represent the minus (-) & plus (+) polarities of nonduality, the integral dynamo of Creation. They are reciprocal, interacting, creative aspects of a whole.

Tantra understood deeply & practiced diligently actually generates the inner balance within each embodied being that inevitably leads to more balanced & harmonious relationships with anyone or anything else. You biological sex is merely the container for this dynamic. As such, this balancing & empowering is precisely what happens to a man who practices solosexual MEA, or with a partner or with a group. In this sense, of generating inner integrity, he becomes a Phallic God!

I'm doing it now, at the keyboard, between rounds of tapping . . . delicately, mindfully masturbating my big thick hot erection, tasting the clear jewels of precum emergent at the tip . . .

Peace & Namaste,

(((HUGS)))

Bruce

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GLOBAL EJACULATIONS!!!

1.1.09

Precious Brothers in Bating Bliss:

WHOOOAAAHHHH!!! As we say here in Tejas! While running my hot bubble bath this delicious predawn, I watched the fireworks from around the world on the BBC News website. Skyscrapers & towering phallic monuments all over the planet experiencing powerful, fiery, radiant ejaculations of wonder & awe.

Following a prolonged game of "Find the Sea-Serpent" again in the tub this New Year's AM, I performed what I call the 1st Form of Male Sex Magick. This involves creating a container, keeping focused on an image during prolonged erotic ecstasy of high quality sustained without ejaculating. Finally (ion this case after several days of cultivating) you go ahead & totally surrender to the ejaculatory orgasm while keeping focused on the Impeccable Intent all through the experience.

What I sought to manifest appeared immediately!

And YOU, my Phallic Brothers, are the benficiaries of this manifest reality, as you'll discover & can confirm for yourselves during this amazing, challenging Year 2009, of opportunities unprecedented. I will not divulge the exact phrasing of my Male Sex Magick in this case, not to be secretive, merely to keep my Wisdom Pearl within me. It's what Yogis call the Blue Pearl, only that's another story . .

Let it suffice to say that I'm excited about the clarity I now have on how MEA works:

Pleasure X Ecstasy = Joy

Pleasure is a wonderful thing, only by my definition here, it never takes you beyond gratifying your human sense of self; you remain within your story, in the realm of a conditioned ego-crafted self-image. This is not bad or wrong, only it's limiting to your personal conscious evolution.

When you learn to surrender to ecstasy, you're no longer seeking to control how much pleasure you experience, instead you leap into the abyss of the unknown. You accept that you cannot totally control anything; you allow that greater thing--the mysterious Universe, Powers, Source, Nature, God--whatever you wish to call it to flow through you. The creative force of Creation will shatter & dissolve your ego. You experience Pure Being. A direct experience of the Universe as nothing but flowing energy.

Inititally this may require either courage or foolishness. You must face your fear of personal annihilation, your fear of losing your identity, to "Leap . . . & the Net WILL appear!" It's Indra's Net, the total interconnectedness, the flow of ex-stasis, what we call Synchronicity. The silvery Synchromesh beyond Time. Thus Ecstasy become the treasure of Pure Being when you face your fears, look behind them & discover the authentic embodiment, the human male animal inhabited by primordial BEING that you are!

Yes, my Brothers: "We are stardust . . . billion year old carbon, / we are golden, / caught in the devil's bargain, / & we've got to get ourselves back to the garden," as the great bard & seer Joni Mitchell sang some 40 years ago on the road to Woodstock.

Who'd uh thunk it'd take us this long to catch on, only we ARE on our way back!

Peace & Namaste,

XOXOXOXO

Bruce

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MEA: The New Frontier for 2009

12.31.08

My Brothers in Penile Passion:

Early in the year 2008 someone persuaded me to hook up my webcam again & a few times I connected with Brothers really dedicated to the kind of masturbatory ecstasy I'm fostering with the Mission . . . however, before long I stopped using it much, as my focus shifted to producing the new DVDs (COMING SOON!) & my loving advisors kept reminding me how valuable my time is. There are billions of male masturbators on the planet!

Now & then I still connect via cam with a man whose practice goes beyond mundane "jacking-off" into the magnificence of Male Erotic Alchemy. Recently, an email persuaded me to use the cam again . . . We chat for a short while & our brief exchanges confirm that he's not only intelligent & attractive, but a sincere spiritual warrior on the path of Phallic Brotherhood. Before long, I turn on the cam, I'm stroking myself, though clothed in the chill of my early AM office. As I shift the cam & reveal my erection & hand on it, this Brother decides to join me. He undresses & asks me to do the same; we observe one another practicing . . . our penises acting as nonlocal antennas stirring the fire from within our bodies across the curvature of Planet Earth . . .

2009 holds the promise of incredible opportunities in a human world where our species has created its greatest challenges ever! Nature itself is perfect & remains implacably awaiting the reconciliation with us--the prodigal species of bipedal primates that produces accelerating change, now going exponential. What some expect may happen in the year 2012 is actually happening NOW! We're shifting . . .

My contribution for cultural evolution is Male Erotic Alchemy, or MEA, a simple yet subtle & profound process of personal transformation that addresses our challenges at the CAUSE rather than treating the SYMPTOMS. Many men are deeply insecure & I'm offering a new form of actual Initiation into Phallic Brotherhood. Traditional alchemy, on the surface was about changing base metals into gold, only this was always a metaphor for spiritual & conscious evolution, of growth from mundane victimhood to magnificent awakening.

Over my 13 years of practice, experiment, discovery & revelation, I've penetarted to the core of Far Eastern traditions concerning sexuality & energy. It's really about re-deploying the incredibly powerful energy of human male sexuality from the commonly-conditioned forms of the social "sex-hunt" to an inward focus for greater internal balance, integration & the direct experience of your primal being: a Phallic God. Here you merge the sacred with the erotic, the spiritual & the material are One. MEA can be done solo, partnered or in a group, & I'm encouraging all these forms of practice.

As always, I'm highly aroused while writing this--my big, thick, engorged erection radiates luminous waves of bliss through my legs, up my torso, swelling my heart & churning through my aroused yet empty brain! The most delicate brushing & squeezing of my hot, velvety penis & caressing my balls, along with clenching of my anus shoots blissful Serpent Fire upward along my spine. My ecstasy fuses to JOY as I levitate here--so I hope that YOU, my Phallic Brother, will join me on this noble quest.

Each man who opens his mind & heart to explore his full erotic potential becomes a Phallic God. It's a potent possibility encoded in the human male animal via DNA & the stardust of which your body is composed. Why not breathe deeply, relax, & participate . . . ???

AAAAaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh . . . mmmMMMmmmnnnn . . . ooOOooooooooooo!!!

Peace & Namaste,

XOXOXOXO

Bruce

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Masturbating Mindfully for World Peace

(SEE the effect of MEA in this man's face???)

12.25.08

My Brothers in Penile Passion:

I know of no better means for human males to foster world peace than to work on loving ourselves better. Peace begins within YOU & loving yourself, improving your self-esteem & self-image begins with loving yourself better on ALL levels including the physical & erotic. As human males, we're all walking wounded, subject to massive conditioning with phony & destructive beliefs about "masculinity" & how tough the world is; life is a struggle; you have to compete & excel. Masturbating is for losers; it's only a substitute for REAL: sex, which is intercourse with women. Or sex must involve oral & anal contact. You are not worthy unless you're a handsome muscle stud who attracts women &/or men like flies . . . etc.

Good news, my Phallic Brothers!!! We live in a supportive Universe! There's plentiful abundance for all! You are perfect exactly as you are! You are beautiful just as you are! Masturbating is the original form of erotic pleasure & by reclaiming it's honor & power, you reclaim your Original Innocence as a natural animal spirit, a Phallic God, a divine being that never actuallyleft the Pardise Garden of Nature!

Though the standard "sex hunt" of adult sexuality in today's world is a commercially slick product & can lead to jaded performance art, we're in the midst of a New Erotic Revolution! Men such as YOU & ME are reclaiming male masturbation as an honorable, precious, powerful practice! We humble our egos & start over, again & again, to discover the immense & transformational power of masturbating mindfully, or Male Erotic Alchemy (what I call MEA) which is the actual process behgind such teachings as Tantra & Taoist sexuality. Men who learn to awaken to the Phallic God sleeping in our bodies can then boldly & blissfully SHARE this Brotherhood in Phallic Communion, generating peace beyond understanding & radiating this out into the world! We can masturbate mindfully solo, with a partner, or sharing this with groups of Phallic Brothers.

As we come together through such teachings as I'll be offering in 2009 through my Male Mystery School gatherings, we begin to break down the conditioned fears men have of fellow men, dissolving the internalized & external homophobia that is used by religious & political institutions to keep men fearfdl & controlled. This global Shift begins in the heart of each man, like you, who longs for such peace & fellowship.

Let's do it, Brothers! Not only because it feels better than anything ever has, but because it's the best way to safely open our hearts & do our part for world peace! In fact, I'm doing it right now, while I'm tapping these keys . . .

Peace & Namaste,

(((HUGS)))

Bruce

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The REALITY of Male Masturbation on a Planetary Scale

(Phallic Brotherhood Logo)

12.24.08

My Beloved Phallic Brothers:

This morning--though yet again it's not so cold outside--I indulged in a wonderfully hot bubbly bath that totally soaked away the 4 intense days of pre-Xmas work at the local retail where I work part-time. This morning I've been playing Find the Sea-Serpent, some Minotaur Masturbation (if these terms baffle you, go back through my blogs, + the August-November 2008 archive is now available on the link below). In the midst of my transformational ecstasy, I realized I've been Riding the Naga for maybe 2 or 3 weeks. In this case, I mean I had not ejaculated during this period. I so much enjoy fueling my passionate enthusiasm & profound joy in all facets of my daily life via erotic cultivation of energy. YUM!

I reserve ejaculation for special occaisions, (though these CAN sometimes occur 2 or 3 XXX in one day!) & I consciously surrendered to the full power of an implosion orgasm: I've been masturbating for maybe only 40 minutes by candle-light in the tub . . . when I stroke myself quite close to the edge, then totally relax every muscle I can just before the contractions begin. Though semen spurts & flows from me, the blinding blissful oblivion seems to IMPLODE & settle like glimmering stardust in the marrow of my bones . . .

On my wonderful Yahoo group, (SEE link above) there has been some wonderful discussion again of "How many guys are masturbating &/or ejaculating at any time on Planet Earth?" I LOVE this question! Well, we're seeing some intriguing estimates & suggestions about the repercussions/possibilities related to this awesome, astounding REALITY.

MY estimate is not precise, however, last I heard there are about 6.8 billion humans aboard this global spaceship . . . heading rather rapidly towards 7. Gosh! If 3.4 (roughly, not precisely) are human MALES, I'd still maintain that at any moment there are probably many millions of these guys masturbating. Consider: 1 billion is a thousand million. So even if only 1 in 3.4 thousand = 1 million are masturbating at a time, that's quite a few. My 10 years as a professional sex-educator & also a more radical erotic activist promoting masturbatory excellence among human male suggests that at any given time, far more than 1 of every 3.4 thousand guys is masturbating. Probably a LOT more than that . . .

So most likely there are MANY millions of males masturbating ALL the XXX. And because the vast majority of these guys are not yet all that skilled or artful in the Fine Art of Male Masturbation, many of these are goal-oriented & tending to ejaculate sooner than later. Nothing wrong with that. Only it suggests rivers & floods of semen ALL THE TIME!

Well, not only could we provide a huge amount of alternate energy by harnessing all those fingers, wrists, elbows & arms enacting kinetic energy to generate electricity--far MORE amazing is the psychological, personal growth & spiritual evolutionary energies we CAN & WILL harvest increasing from the Year 2009 onward! By encouraging human males to claim their erotic potential & become Phallic Gods in Phallic Brotherhood, sharing Phallic Communion, we can do our part to help Shift the Earth & to return it to the Paradise Garden it REALLY is! The Male Mystery School I've founded will champion this cause.

We can accomplish this by reconciling our human nature with Nature itself through the practice & dissemination (pun intended!) of Mindful Masturbation for Men.

Peace & Namaste,

XOXOXOXO

Bruce

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Reclaim Your Penile Innocence, Part 2 of 2

(Part 1 is below)

12.21.08

Dear Brothers in p3 (pure penile pleasure):

Again we're having chilly "winter" temps here in my part of the world, since that morning just a couple of days ago when I went outside lightly dressed & masturbated on the garden deck before daybreak.

Today I've stayed in the cozy comfort of my downstairs home office . . . the central heat whirs reassuringly while I pause at the keyboard to enjoy deliciously manipulating the big, flushed, stiff erection protruding from my pants between my legs, generating glorious sensations that suffuse my entire body. Even when I simply stop typing for a moment & merely clench my anus, I've trained my body so that a starburst of delight rushes upward along my spine to illuminate my brain, without even touching my penis . . .

More than ever I feel that reclaiming the pure-hearted intensity of male solosexuality is a major spiritual practice. In today's climate of "adult" sexuality it's easy to grow jaded, to imagine you know what it's all about. To develop callus, lose sensitivity & vulnerability. To lose the mystery, the passionate enthusiasm, the Original Innocence that can return you to living in Paradise.

Sometime people get the impression that I am a highly intelligent, complex man, a walking encyclopedia--well, maybe so--only those that actually know me perhaps know better. In fact, from within myself I'm often amused at how simple I seem to myself. Sometimes I seem to be nothing but a big walking penis! Plus, I tend to live in a state of awe, wonder, amazement at the simple reality of my existence!

This is not because I'm simple-minded, & indeed, I'm an autonomous learner, on a lifelong journey of discovery. Only what I keep discovering over & over again is THE KEY TO HAPPINESS IS THE 7-YEAR-OLD-BOY THAT LIVES WITHIN MY ADULT MALE BODY! This is my inner child, yet by no means asexual, indeed highly erotic & aware of the intensity of male human sexuality. As I've related before, this is the boy that not only refused to grow up (like Peter Pan, who can fly!) but the boy who rejects the notion of being cast out of the Garden. I refuse to Fall from Grace! I'm a natural animal, of basic goodness.

I am still, every day, astounded by the magnificence & ultra-sensitivity of my adult male genitalia & body, something so easily taken for granted, yet it's wondrous & miraculous qualities can be reclaimed by simple mindfulness, paying attention: presence.

This is the boy who used to get so excited simply by going into Nature by himself & getting naked that every cell of his body would tingle--& I still do this. This is the boy who had not entirely deciphered the mysteries of masturbating, yet enjoyed intense sessions of cock2cock penis-rubbing with a boy his own age. Something that still amazes me to share with a fellow adult male.

This is me. And I do feel that by breaking your habitual patterns of self-pleasure, by humbling yourself to start over (as I do every day!) & re-learn masturbating, by exploring creative & mindful self-pleasuring, & possibly sharing this with other men, you too can reclaim your penile innocence.

Should you choose to, I'm here, ready to share MY penile innocence with you . . . Man-- Oh--Man, has anything EVER felt this GOOD before??? Diamond drops of precum thread from fingertip to tongue!!! Totally amazing . . .

Peace Beyond Understanding,

XOXOXOXO

Bruce

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Reclaim Your Penile Innocence, Part 1 of 2

12.19.08

Dear Brothers in p3 (pure penile pleasure):

Before daybreak in these lovely hills outside of cities & the rush of modern techno-life, I've enjoyed my first cup of coffee. I look forward to Yoga & meditiation, however something draws me from within myself to go outside on this suprisingly mild morning the day before Winter Solstice. With a little flashlight, I walk outside along the winding garden path past the sleeping lily pond to the back deck overlooking the wildflower garden & the 5 terraces of the vegetable garden. Climbing a few stone steps, I stretch my arms, click off the flashlight & sit back on a bench under the racing clouds.

Leaning back, I gaze up at the dwindling bone-white boat of the waning Moon that seems to race along the sky as a dark skin of partial cloud-cover flows from beyond the southern horizon . . . I open my soft cotton house pants, free my partial erection & begin breathing deeply, relaxed, masturbating mindfully beyond thought, absorbed by the Moon, my tingling shivers of pleasure fill the cup of my body gradually & overflow to radiant ecstasy that connects me with Nature itself; the world around me seems neither dark nor light but luminous with the cellular weave, the connected energy-thrteads of the Web of Life; fully aroused I begin simply triggering the frenulum at the underside of my glans with one hand while pulling down my balls with the other hand . . .

When did my pants go down to my ankles???

The mild predawn air licks my bare thighs, invisible fingertips brush tiny hairs tingle along my shins, humidity cups my scrotum with freshness & my thick, warm erection seems to arc all the way to the top of the sky . . . such glorious, indescribable sweetness & joy suffuses my body & being, boundaries dissolving . . . the Moon dips behind dark cloud just as a Grey Fox begins its raspy, ethereal barking from the inky hillside across the ravine . . .

As my personal growth & my daily practice of masturbating mindfully continues, I realize that as human males we are ALL walking wounded. In various ways, we have all suffered traumas, or at least limiting conditioning. This may prevent us from fully embracing the trasnformational potential of the awakened penis, from surrendering to the joy that becomes possible with AROUSED LIVING! A rediscovery of solosexuality (not necessarily alone, as this can mean a masturbatory focus shared by 2 or more men!) can also mean reclaiming essential pure-hearted innocence.

Human sexuality of adults often becomes a sex-hunt, an ego-game of proving something to others or to yourself: "I'm desirable," "I'm a stud," or "I'm not desirable, only I can please you." "I can MAKE you like me!" Or it's actually a one-sided quest for gratification, rather than a merging into something bigger, like the Universe! All sorts of twisted dramas can become fixed behavioral patterns.

Now I'm more aware than ever that re-learning solosexual skills to new levels of expertise & artfulness can also be a means to re-deploy you erotic energy as suatined, high-quality ecstasy that can actually accelerate your growth beyond ego. It can return you to your Original Innocence--something like the little boy inside so many men, that first discovered how powerful the pleasuring of his penis can be . . .

Peace Beyond Understanding,

XOXOXOXO

Bruce

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Minotaur Masturbation: Fingering the Prostate, Part 3 of 3

12.17.08

Dear Brothers in Penile Passion:

The last few mornings have been down around freezing again before daybreak, so I've enjoyed a couple more hot bubble baths with a candle burning . . . playing "Find the Sea-Serpent" as my erection stands & sways about, thick & hard, seeming infinitely HUGE, feeling infinitely sensitive as I play for about 20+ minutes before settling back, legs wide & pelvis open for external rosebud play, then gradual insertion of my middle finger all the way through both sphincters to press & rub my prostate while the other hand continues tender, extremely delicate manipulations of my engorged penis . . .

Whoaaaaahhhhhh . . . AMAZING stuff, what I call Minotaur Masturbation . . . entering the labyrinth of the "underworld" & connecting with my deepest bestial sensations as a sexual animal . . . mmmmMMMmmmnnn . . . above, if I'm not mistaken, you can see the intensity, the awesome power of this penile/anal ecstasy on my face! It's deep all right!

What this kind of erotic ecstasy can do for you goes far beyond mere sexual gratification, or what we ordinarily call pleasure--my experience & my understanding both suggest that Minotaur Masturbation can make permanent, beneficial changes in both your brain function & the well-being & health of your entire body/mind continuum.

What I mean by this is that 2 relatively new discoveries of science (the "big" terms you need not worry about are "neuroplasticity" & "epigenetics") mean that 1.) Retraining yourself by learning a new behavior actually wires new pathways into your brain & nervous system; 2.) Everything you percieve, experience, feel actually changes your DNA. You can ignore this paragraph if all this seems too technical for you, however the latter means that you are NOT a genetic robot, in fact attitude is everything. Various chromosomes are being switched off & on all through your body as you experience living.

These scientific developments emerging mostly within the last decade challenge old assumptions that your brain pretty much deteriorates after you reach physical maturity, & the "genetic determinism" that says almost everything you are & do is determined by your DNA. Indeed your DNA is totally astounding, profound & powerful, yet it simply gives you the godlike tools of your human incarnation. DNA connects you with your heritage as a being made of stardust. As a man, if you choose to explore your erotic potential, your heritage is to be a Phallic God. By a "god," I mean a human expressing a divine essence.

The myth of the Hero entering the labyrinth to slay the half-bull monstrous Minotaur can be reinterpreted this way: In fact, it's about going within yourself, both mythically & literally, inserting a finger into the inner realm to stimulate the aroused prostate behind the base of your penis in tandem with stimulating your penis. Thus, rather than killing this beast, you become One with him--you BECOME the ithyphallic Sacred Bull whose erection merges all dualities in absolute unity . . . SEE that Oneness on my face above?!

Or, you can practice Minotaur Masturbation simply because it may take you to places of p3 (pure penile pelasure) that you have never felt before, beyond words, beyond thought . . . come with me won't you??? Don't think about it, just . . .

Peace & Namaste,

(((HUGS)))

Bruce

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Minotaur Masturbation: Fingering the Prostate, Part 2 of 3

12.12.08

Dear Brothers in Penile Passion:

The reasons that inserting a finger into your anus to stimulate you prostate while masturbating your penis is so incredibly powerful are several. Above & in all 3 parts of this blog post, you see photos in which my face reflects the fact that I AM actually entering the labyrinth & seeking the Minotaur of my primordial, sexual Animal Spirit as a human male. The anus is taboo for hygenic reasons among others, yet with careful bathing there's nothing filthy or unsavory about it. Yet it's the first thing an infant is trained to "CONTROL" & feel ashamed of losing control of--so you may require some conscious effort to override this conditioning & reclaim your anus as sacred ground.

Of course you anus & perineum IS called the Root Chakra or the base of your torso in Yoga, for here your being is grounded in the earthy, physical roots of your embodiment. Plus in the physiological sense to break the taboo against anal pleasure is a tremendous liberation: it's the "dark secret" the "hidden core" of the entire pelvic, genital region.

In mythic-erotic terms of the human male body as a love-map, you can see in the sequence of my facial expressions the pleasure/ecstasy/joy of my initial penile arousal, the inward focus & intensity as I'm externally stimulating my rosebud, (SEE Part 1 below) then the concentration (above) as I'm entering the labyrinth, insering my finger gradually . . . gently yet firmly . . . lovingly . . . & below, the astonishing, glorious intensity beyond words . . .

I've learned that indeed, some of the deepest male mysteries lie here: invisible & unseen yet extremely potent & transformational. As you reclaim an accepting, loving, cooperative relationship with your anus & prostate, you literally touch into your core & become more open. In fact, the body does not speak symbols, it's quite literal. Energy has the potential to flower upward through your torso & flow more fully all through your body.

As you begin first to press your aroused, swollen prostate with that buried digit . . . then gently, firmly rubbing it in tandem with penile stimulation, you begin exploring the labyrinth of the genuinely undiscovered country, heroically seeking the snorting, stamping, ithyphallic Minotaur that lives at your center in the heart of your being . . .

Peace & Namaste,

(((HUGS)))

Bruce

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Minotaur Masturbation: Fingering the Prostate, Part 1 of 3

12.11.08

Dear Brothers in Penile Passion:

Something I love adding to my hot bubble bath sessions on these chilly early morning is to carefully insert my middle finger into my anus & rub my prostate while also stimulating my penis. It's an incredibly intense & powerful practice! I call this "Minotaur Masturbation" for one way of understanding our bodies is as a mythic love-map. In these terms, the anus is like the entrance to the underground labyrinth (visualize the twists & turns of the intestines!) that the mythic Hero enters in search of the half-animal Minotaur . . .

I'm aware that before penetrating the rosebud in the hairy cleft of my buttocks, it's important to be fully aroused & stimulated for some time, at least 20 or 30 minutes, perhaps--no problem considering how much I love to play Find the Sea-Serpent in the tub! Your body arouses from front to back, so penile play is an important prep for this. I begin the quest for the Minotaur by tenderly employing external stimulation of the rosebud, brushing fingertips across the satiny pucker, circling it, dabbing gently in-&-out, penetrating only gradually . . . by increments . . . aware that there are actually 2 circular sphincter muscles of the anus . . .

The first, external sphincter is close to the surface, under voluntary control & when I'm as clean as I am this morning, it's simply another delight to flexate that muscle in & out, gently working the fingertip in a bit & relaxing--NO RUSH! Meanwhile pausing for a bit more penile play: remember to keep BREEEATHING, Bruce! My short-timmed & carefully-filed nails make this no problem as the outer ring relaxes . . . & the inner one will yield when I deeply WANT to be penetrated from my heart . . . oh, yesssssssssssssssssss . . .

Now, as my finger slips deeper past the 2nd, clenching sphincter, it slides into the satiny-smooth walls of the rectum where the swollen bulge of my prostate lies perhaps an inch + inside, behind the base of my balls. I pause, breathing, penis huge & highly-charged, quite close to the edge, I'm breathing deeply as my blood rushes . . .

I'm entering THIS labyrinth not to slay the Monotaur, but to put on the horns, to become One with this bull-headed man, who is my innermost animal nature, the insatiable sexual beast at my core. He's a Beloved Monster of Gaia, a primordial Son of Mother Earth . . . & in the next 2 blogs I will further describe the quest & how I BECOME the Minotaur!

Peace & Namaste,

(((HUGS)))

Bruce

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The Awakened Phallus, Part 3 of 3

12.7.08:

Dear Phallic Brothers:

Few men just happen upon or spontaneously discover the kind of spiritual awakening of body-merging-with-being that is possible through a creative, artful, diligent practice of masturbating mindfully. Most of us have a history of specific, preditable habits for our sessions: often there's concern for being disdcovered, not making sounds, holding your breath & tensing up muscles to intensify sensations while fantasizing. Often the goal is powerful ejaculation, rather than savoring the journey all the way along.

My years of practice have taught me there's nothing wrong with all that, only it's every bit as common as being a human male & having a penis. PLUS it misses the incredible & limitless possibilities that you can open to by breaking habitual patterns & exploring the undicovered country, the unknown, the Universe within yourself. Indulge me, please.

My practice now allows me to directly experience unity of all my parts, a sense of connection with the totality of existence, not only to feel totally alive, but to BE Life itself. As I'm delicately & thoroughly stimulating the entirety of my fully aroused penis in a deeply breathing, deeply relaxed yet alert state of full attention, I'm aware that massaging my entire erection IS massaging my entire body, & it goes both ways. By allowing the arousal to suffuse gradually through every one of the trilions-upon-trillions of cells of my embodiment, those "parts" I call body, heart, mind, personality, soul, spirit, all come into alignment & merge back into a primordial One of being. As pleasure becomes sustained ecstasy becomes joy, boundaries dissolve . . . limitations vanish . . . awareness expands in connection with all Phallic Brothers, humanity, planetary life & the cosmos . . .

This may sound somewhat "hifalutin" to some guys, only perhaps not to others who have learned to surrender to the process, rather than seeking a goal. What I've learned & continue learning is that the more advanced, skillful & artful my self-pleasuring becomes with incessant practice-practice-practice, the more this really does become something light-years beyond self-gratification.

Most major religions formed around male teachers who had some kind of awakening beyond most other people. If you look at the MEN instead of the religions that formed around them, there's no reason to imagine they rejected their own sexuality or were asexual. Most likely, solosexuality was an integral aspect of their humanity that they fully accepted as natural & healthy. Only now we know you don't need an intermediary, you have your own direct connection with the Source & it's between your legs.

I'm 100% responsible for how much pleasure/ecstasy/joy I experience, whether solosexuality or partnered erotic play or in groups of men. I find I'm no longer so attached to each moment of erotic pleasure, & I don't push away intervals of suffering. Ironically humans can also be attached to pain & reject pleasure. I'm far more balanced & centered. It's like an endless flowing river I can appreciate & enjoy as the richness of experience.

Perhaps to focus only on the positive would become unbalanced, except there's plenty of collective misery in the human realm. So the most awakened, enlightened, useful thing you can contribute to humanity & the planet is your happiest, healthiest, most joyful self.

Peace & Namaste,

XOXOXOXO

Bruce

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The Awakened Phallus, Part 2 of 3

12.5.08:

Dear Phallic Brothers:

GOOD NEWS!!! You were born in a state of Original Innocence! As a pure soul you emerged into this life a whole being, regardless of the physical details of your body, your essence was (& most important still IS!) pure, good, innocent, & perfect exactly as you are.

What almost inevitably happens along the way--often from virtually the moment after birth, is you are handed assumptions & fed conditioning about "HOW LIFE IS." This is the way things are: You will always be taken care of OR Everything you need may not always be there. You're the best little boy in the world. Boys are tough, they should not cry. Life can be scary. You are not worthy. You are perfect. You are NOT perfect. You are bad.

Take just one crucial example. A newborn baby boy seems hard-wired to not only seek comforting touch & embrace & nourishment--sooner rather than later his hands tend to find his penis. This hooks up much as his mouth hooks up to the nipple. However even the gentlest older hand, without any malign intention brushing his tiny had away from between his legs begins the process of casting the baby boy out of Paradise. Or perhaps this is allowed so long as no one really notices; yet when he's a bit older he gets the massage: DON'T LET ANYONE SEE YOU DOING THAT!

There is wisdom indeed in the enlightened sex-education teaching that to focus only on your penis is limiting. To develop more skillful, rewarding, life-enhancing experience of male eroticism, invite your entire body to become aroused & ecstatic. When you focus attention just on your penis (often keeping your mind filled with fantasies that sustain arousal but don't nourish ALL your cells) functionally your penis IS separated from your body. Your reward becomes relatively shallow & limited.

Beyond this wisdom of not focusing JUST on your penis is what I've learned over the years of masturbating mindfully. With fully present, relaxed, creative arousal, your penis can again become One with the rest of your body as it was at birth. This returns you to your paradisiac state. You become a whole animal. Your human nature merges with Nature.

With MM4M you learn to allow the ecstatic sensations, the circulation of blood through your aroused body, the circulation of nervous system signals, to flow through a relaxed, healthy body without tension & muscle blocks, lighting up ALL of your trillions of cells. This is like what the tiny baby boy feels, hand connected between his legs without shame or inhibition. He's perfect, innocent, good, pure . . . unless he's taught otherwise. Thus MM4M is also a process of remembering this innate wisdom. This really can bring you back into living in Paradise.

This morning in bed: lying almost perfectly still . . . for a measureless time I'm highly aroused, focusing most of my touch just on my frenulum at the underside of the glans, fingertips gently plucking at the corobal ridge, tender squeezes of the flared mushroom head; sometimes holding & tugging my balls or even pressing a fingertip into my anus . . . mostly just gripping glans & upper shaft skin . . . I'm aware eventually of weaving a web of energetic bliss, like a silky cocoon of ecstatic-erotic luminosity enclosing me head-to-toes . . . reclaiming my essential wholeness in Original Innocence . . . One . . .

Peace & Namaste,

XOXOXOXO

Bruce

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The Awakened Phallus, Part 1 of 3

12.3.08

Dear Phallic Brothers:

Some of my most intense, profound & powerfully transformational sessions of masturbating mindfully are actually my most serene & subdued--or at least I expect they would appear so to an observer! From INSIDE, I merge with the Universe!

I'm home for my 3-day "weekend" from the day job & my pard is out doing landscaping work, so I have the house to myself . . . following a lively session of danceturbation with music on the CD player, plentiful lube & the full-length mirrror, I've done Magical Passes, Yoga & Sitting Meditation . . . now lying back on the yoga mat, feeling radiant, balanced, centered . . . having been fully aroused some time before & totally aware of my naked body, my full attention focuses inward while I'm caressing myself slowly, tenderly everywhere . . . roaming light touch, stroking my hair & whiskers, little tweaks to my ears, brushing my lips, pinching my nipples, feeling my feet, hairy shins, knees, feathering inner thighs . . .

. . . my penis surges with reneweed blood, twitching, stiffening, lifting even before I begin touching it. This incredible session involves occasionally standing, swinging my hips side-to-side as that swollen thing slaps back & forth, even lifting into one foot to reach behind & pull my balls while massaging my erection with the other hand in front. Sometimes I walk to the window to admire the garden & trees outside; or I'm back on the floor in a variety of delicious positions, thighs wide & pelvis open, hips thrust up, or slowly rolling around while I'm masturbating mindfully. Rolling my erection back on my belly with a flat palm, the other hand dabs doorbel pushes at the rosebud between my buttocks. At times I'm simply lying back breathing deeeeeply, slowwwwly, totally relaxxxxed yet rock-hard erect; one hand cups & kneads my balls gently, mindfully, the other delicately triggers the freulum at the underside of my tight pink mushroom head . . . bliss that passes all understanding . . .

Among the spiritual teachings that grow clear & most important in the 21st Century are incredibly simple & practical. We all tend to think way too much, living in our heads & must learn to simply BE & experience full embodiment. Being present, the mindful awareness of HERE & NOW, of being in your body. The nature of the human ego as attachment to a false identity based on thought-forms, such as your appearance, your job, your possessions, even a major illness you're attached to! In actuality you are none of these, you are a being, you are awareness itself, which you can only know within yourself as you BE HERE NOW. Even better: BE HAPPY NOW! Your thoughts can easily separate you from Nature & your own human nature as an animal. Hence mindful awareness is the key.

Also the fact is you create the reality you experience--not that you can control all the events of your life--however you DO navigate your EXPERIENCE of living through your choices & attitude. You attract all the qualities of life that you experience via your attitude. For example, ordinary JO sessions are great, but leave you pretty much the same, unchanged; MM4M can actually be transformational, an evolutionary process.

Awakening is a process, like loving yourself better & better. It's not a place you arrive, but an ongoing process worth integrating into a full life of diverse experiences--just as masturbating mindfully is a practice worth integrating into a full life of diverse experiences. The "Awakened Phallus" is one way to say it's stirring & becoming erect, & this can also mean you're viewing penile pleasure as a valuable path to enlightenment.

For men, because most of us love masturbating anyway, (but most of us have not really ventured into the realm where this can be transformational) this can become a process of awakening, of being more fully alive & of changing yourself for the better. It's a perfect & infinitely sweet thing to combine the process of awakening with male masturbation.

I'm excited & not only in the erotic sense--though indeed, my penis is big & upright & warm in the cool of my office right NOW, again asking for attention, at the tip of the glans this glistening jewel in the lotus!--for our adventures of Phallic Brotherhood have just begun, if you're with me on this . . .

Peace & Namaste,

XOXOXOXO

Bruce

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